I haven’t
updated my portfolio value since March, so it was about time that I get into
it. The exercise is always very long. I could used some tools like Google
Finance or something like it, but I actually like the process of calculating
one investment at a time, number of stocks or units X value, one after the
other... And the process is quite long. Just doing my non registered portfolio
alone is a job but it’s giving me a real sense of what I own. I cannot skip
anything while facing the monster. I have to deal with the thing under the damn
job is done and completed.
Back in March
2012, my overall portfolio value was of $172 835.09. Now in June, my portfolio
is at $167 799.45. I am of 5k, but it’s not that bad knowing the current state
of the stock market. We’ll need some very good news coming from Europe before
the situation stabilizes. The Euro situation is putting too much stress on the
market and investors. I find it really unfair.
This week was
quite rough on the TSX. At a point, the TSX closed at minus 300 points on a
day... I got very scared. Each time the TSX is dropping like that, it’s giving
me a punch in my stomach. 2008 was worst; we had August of last summer if I
remember and many other occasions in where the TSX loss points for a reason or
another. But each and single, it’s a nightmare. And it’s always a question of:
will the TSX gain points ever gain?
Each and single time, there’s doubt, but our TSX is so strong, it’s always rebound. Each and single time, it always go better after. For those reasons, I don’t have problem to go to sleep at night, usually. But I am always getting that hit in the stomach every single time. I guess experience give answers on how to handle these stock market traumas, but each time, there’s that part of doubt that remain. And what if I have to deal with losses forever?
Each and single time, there’s doubt, but our TSX is so strong, it’s always rebound. Each and single time, it always go better after. For those reasons, I don’t have problem to go to sleep at night, usually. But I am always getting that hit in the stomach every single time. I guess experience give answers on how to handle these stock market traumas, but each time, there’s that part of doubt that remain. And what if I have to deal with losses forever?
While investing in stock, insecurity is our best friend. Being too sure, too confident will just play against retail investors. Insecurity is what will make you diversify your portfolio, it’s what will make you invest in gold and silver, and it’s what will make you have a good cash reserve.
While investing
in stock, insecurity is a positive source of stress.
Anyway, you
might know by now, I am very good at giving very good advices, but I don’t
follow them myself all the time, but I am very conscious of what I should do or
not. At this point for me, it’s a do or fail. If the Maple Group deal goes
through, I will get a maximum of cash because you know, while being so bright,
I am able to see that the Maple Group is all garbage and I don’t want any
Quebec institutions to be actively involved in the management of my beloved
TSX. Just watching Quebeckers leading their own province make me sick to dead. Investing
in stocks had been so far the best experience of my life and I want it to
continue this way. Got it?
I am so
terribly close of being able to live exclusively on my dividend (even while
having close to what, 100k in debt lol). I feel just kicking my own ass and I
feel like screaming at that f girl. Holly s, you are so closed! I should be
working at 3 jobs right now to make it and stop being lazy. Because now is a
good time to buy everything you ever dream of.
Personally, a
problem I have is that I don’t know in what to invest anymore. I had acquired
everything I ever wanted. My temporary job is quite of a job and leaves me
little energy to do anything else. Another problem being the fact that I am in
Montreal. There’s way too much distraction here and Montreal is like a gorgeous
young man in the summer sun with a hot tan and gorgeous body. So you don’t feel
like overworking and doing much while living in paradise. Do you see what I
mean?
I just bought
earlier some suntan lotion that smell coconut so my super white skin won’t burn
under the sun. And it smells just so go. I have the wind blowing up my hair.
The weather is just so perfect. How am I supposed to go find a weekend job in
those conditions? There’s no way, I am not going to win on that one.
I will take
time to rebuild my portfolio once the Maple Group deal will be closed. I hope
to rebuild and push the whole dividend income to 8k by the end of September,
when my contract will end. Following what, it will be dividend income + online
income + freelance income.
Once silver
go stronger in term of value, my portfolio could get very closed to the 200k. 200k
is really not much, but it’s enough to bring home a salary to partly cover my
living expenses.
All of the
debt that I own, expect what is on the American Express card and the RRSP loan,
the interest is being declared to get a generous tax credit. Quebec like to s@ck
its very own citizen with taxes, so it might not do that a difference here but
in New Brunswick oh lala. I saw the difference. Last April, I didn’t have RRP
investment, I had a salary of closed to 45k and I got a tax return of $200.
While living in Quebec, I had to pay extra income taxes, even while investing
in RRSP. So there’s a huge difference. Quebec health care and educational
system is all a big scam. I don’t expect to be f up by Quebeckers for really
long. Just for now, under the sexy Montreal sun.
So now, how
do you feel? Can you smell coconut oil? I do smell it and it’s the best perfume
ever. Its delightful.
Happy
investing. Now is the time to completely appropriate yourselves of the TSX and bringing on strong value in the market. For Canadians by Canadians.